Good morning Sunshine,
It’s been a bit. Sometimes I have a lot to write and get out of my head. Sometimes I don’t. I never stop thinking about you. Moments are hard and harder. There is nothing easy right now. Still. I still want to call you. I still want to text you. I wait for you to send me a funny video on messenger.

Last night I watched a couple get engaged and it felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. I came across three states to get away from things and I feel you closer than ever. I also miss the boys. I go back tomorrow and I’ll be so excited to be with them again.

I’m trying to figure out how to go to Yellowstone. You were my everything. My best friend, our dogs’ best friend. My handyman. My love. I was always at peace knowing the dogs were with you. Now I don’t know what to do.